"Sleep"

So my insomnia goes on. Apparently medicine may be part of the cause of this so I have taken it upon myself to lower dosage (in a responsible way and not to none at all no worries). I thought I was getting better sleep ,but I'm not really sure.

I still cry at the same time every night. It sucks and to tell the truth is odd creepy and confusing. The fact that my body/mind does it at the exact same time each morning is freaky. I'm not even looking at a clock and when I start crying each morning it is always a time between 4:10 and 4:25. How is that possible? Anyway... I just start crying and I do not know why. some nights I try to think about what I am thinking of or on the few nights when I look at the clock and realize the tears will be coming soon I write down what I'm thinking at the time. Then there are the nights I cry even more because I do not not why I am crying. Freaking cycle! I HATE IT.

I am so tired. I find it weird that I can still focus and function through the day. Now knowing myself and my body or what not I know that I can get any amount of sleep and function on it but that means that I get sleepier sooner. NOT ANYMORE. The main thing is I have lost a lot of my hunger. Once I figured that out I knew I had to eat my meals so I eat them even if I am not hungery. I lost some weight, but I have gotten it back (great!) haha. If I mean when I lose weight it is going to be the right and healthy way. So with all this crap going on I am trying to eat healthier... pineapple peaches pears healthy choice chewy bars veggies and meat when it is not at seaco. Oh yes and a ton of OJ. I also have been turning my computer off sooner (something about "Blue Light"...)

I am trying. I sleep better at my house so hopefully I sleep well this weekend!!!! :)

PS crocheting is so calming TRY IT!